Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Self-talk on abnormality

The Prologue
Concerning the idiosyncrasies of anyone, when unusualness lingers around for a long while,
it turns to abnormality; Of late, signs of cheerfulness has dissolved itself into nothingness and obsolescence prevails.

The Monologue
You know, it has been a while... since


Smiled at myself in the mirror.
Whistled or sang a note or two of my favorite tunes.
Listened to any of the songs in my collection.
Discovered any new music.
Wondered about the clouds, the sky, the moon, and the stars.
Enjoyed a good dose of the breeze caressing me.

since I wrote or even attempted to...


It has been a while since all these thoughts
dawned on me, and...
I still do not want to do any of these,
or even if I did,

It fails to enthuse me.


am I ageing or are these the usual signs of depression
looming around on my birthday eve?

P.S.: Will they let me fool around if I blame writer's block even if I have not thought about writing at all, forget not being able to move my thoughts or wanting to write?

P.P.S.: In fact, I feel like calling it quits; but don't know at what...!.


Nina Gray said...

ah now,
first off, I am sorry I missed to wish you!

second - you just stole my thoughts there!( but crafted it beautifully in words)

No we are no aging.. its the weather ;)

reNUka said...

no problem dear...
and thanks for the appreciation! :-)
I liked your correlation on ageing and weather (not correlation, perhaps reasoning or must i say your popular blame game?); but the weather out here in chennai is too sweet to be blamed :D am just loving it!
there... good that i have already begun to notice such sweet nothings!