Come Back

The pupils forgot to dilate,

my heart settled to beat slower...

perhaps, my blood got colder?

My senses were rarely alert

and never reached any high.

I was desperate and helpless.

I could not realize what I missed.

I was searching for something

to fill the void, not knowing what.

I was shoved around and
thrown into a perpetual dismay.
With convictions thrown astray
my ship sunk into diffidence.
I felt like I lost my voice
and my power to reason and say.

My constants exclaimed

that I seemed to have aged.

In actual, I was rotting

and indulging in self-sabotage.

Today, realization dawned
and slung me
to heightened consciousness.
Like an ablution 
at the close of a tired day,
like being amidst 
the expanse of a calm blue sea,
like inhaling scentless 
whiff of mist atop a hill.

I notice that it's you.
Am so glad to have gotten you back,
and, most of all, am glad it was you...

Dear Euphoria!