I am waiting for you, in the backyards of my house. I want it to happen again; the same way as it happened a few nights ago. Ours was not something that was planned. The tryst was destined and was forecasted by the heavens. But like all forecasts and predictions, I was as cynical as I would always be. I paced up and down for a few minutes and looked at the heavens. I had a premonition that you would be coming.
The last time it happened, it was wonderful and sublime. It was a feeling I never had experienced before. Though you didn’t give me a chance to see you last time, you did give me signs of your coming, before you came. I did pick up the signals of your arrival, like how a patient wife spots her beloved’s footsteps, amidst other tramps.
My heart was pounding and my adrenals pumping.
You neither let me speak a word last time, for you were aware that I knew you too well; true, we didn’t have to. Of all the eligible ones thriving on this earth, you chose me. You gave me the simple, priceless pleasure of being the first to experience you. Thanks for the honors. I felt liberated – liberated from the shackles of my own personal restrictions and inhibitions. That day, I did find the reason for my habitual, sleepless explorations into the wee hours. It now seems to me that the nocturnal intrusions of emptiness were designed, just for you.
I feel sad that I experienced this kind of revelation only after nearly two decades of my existence. I don’t feel ashamed on my meek surrender; I only feel happy that the wait made me realize your ruthless power to engulf my senses. I still admire and wonder the way you nonchalantly doped me but still managed to empower me.
You gave wings to my restless, struggling mind. After you had devoured me, I was floating in the air, weightless, leaving behind all the impending worries - the heavy-weight worries and the light-weight silly thoughts of mine. The worries – big, small and silly worries, that fill my senses like those big, small stones and the silt that fill a jar to completion.
Yes. I did feel you. Do you remember? A few people even gave us our due privacy, evacuating their bivouac on the terrace. They just couldn’t continue their slumber after you had come. I only felt gratified when I caught a glimpse of their envying faces after they saw your impositions on me.
Now, here I am waiting for your palpations, in the godforsaken hours of the 24-hour cycle - waiting for you to feel me, waiting to submit myself and to feel the liberation, waiting to float again. Won’t you do it again please, I beseech you, and won’t you reign me, O! Rain?
;-) Ppl!! I knew you were gonna fall for this! This is a perfect example of an anti-climax, isn’t it? Though, I still have my doubts if this is a likeable piece... anyway, hope you nsoi-ed it!!!
I would like to say a few words about the title of this post. This is an excellent song I recently happened to listen to and I just fell for ths song. A few of my blog-friends would know the extent to which I adore this song. A simply amazing song, this one, especially the place where it goes...
"But I don't know how to leave you, and I'll never let you fall;
and I don't know how you do it, making love out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all,...."
This song was released as a new entry in their 1983, Greatest Hits collection. Air supply, the Australian soft rock group was originated by Russell Hitchcock and Graham Russell. They became very popular in the late 70s and early 80s.
This is an amazing song and do listen to it, if you can.
And, yeah! thanks for listening for so long!!!
The last time it happened, it was wonderful and sublime. It was a feeling I never had experienced before. Though you didn’t give me a chance to see you last time, you did give me signs of your coming, before you came. I did pick up the signals of your arrival, like how a patient wife spots her beloved’s footsteps, amidst other tramps.
My heart was pounding and my adrenals pumping.
You neither let me speak a word last time, for you were aware that I knew you too well; true, we didn’t have to. Of all the eligible ones thriving on this earth, you chose me. You gave me the simple, priceless pleasure of being the first to experience you. Thanks for the honors. I felt liberated – liberated from the shackles of my own personal restrictions and inhibitions. That day, I did find the reason for my habitual, sleepless explorations into the wee hours. It now seems to me that the nocturnal intrusions of emptiness were designed, just for you.
I feel sad that I experienced this kind of revelation only after nearly two decades of my existence. I don’t feel ashamed on my meek surrender; I only feel happy that the wait made me realize your ruthless power to engulf my senses. I still admire and wonder the way you nonchalantly doped me but still managed to empower me.
You gave wings to my restless, struggling mind. After you had devoured me, I was floating in the air, weightless, leaving behind all the impending worries - the heavy-weight worries and the light-weight silly thoughts of mine. The worries – big, small and silly worries, that fill my senses like those big, small stones and the silt that fill a jar to completion.
Yes. I did feel you. Do you remember? A few people even gave us our due privacy, evacuating their bivouac on the terrace. They just couldn’t continue their slumber after you had come. I only felt gratified when I caught a glimpse of their envying faces after they saw your impositions on me.
Now, here I am waiting for your palpations, in the godforsaken hours of the 24-hour cycle - waiting for you to feel me, waiting to submit myself and to feel the liberation, waiting to float again. Won’t you do it again please, I beseech you, and won’t you reign me, O! Rain?
;-) Ppl!! I knew you were gonna fall for this! This is a perfect example of an anti-climax, isn’t it? Though, I still have my doubts if this is a likeable piece... anyway, hope you nsoi-ed it!!!
I would like to say a few words about the title of this post. This is an excellent song I recently happened to listen to and I just fell for ths song. A few of my blog-friends would know the extent to which I adore this song. A simply amazing song, this one, especially the place where it goes...
"But I don't know how to leave you, and I'll never let you fall;
and I don't know how you do it, making love out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all,...."
This song was released as a new entry in their 1983, Greatest Hits collection. Air supply, the Australian soft rock group was originated by Russell Hitchcock and Graham Russell. They became very popular in the late 70s and early 80s.
This is an amazing song and do listen to it, if you can.
And, yeah! thanks for listening for so long!!!
25 comments:
I know you only too well to fall for this !!!...I had an instinct that this would be Rain...My guess...rather premonition was right...I guessed it right...whats the treat???
krish - yeah, i suppose... but then being so sure of somebody always lead to disappointments! :))
dumbs - thanks for that - am honored!!! ;-)
Atleast you wouldnt disappoint me...coz I have no expectations from you...I think expectations lead to disappointments...not being so sure...right???
Usually you avoid fiction - so I guess many will fall for it. Though I was off the mark but not much. I had expected the "rays of the sun".
Of whatever I have read on your blog, this is by far the best piece.Keep it up.
krish... but dont u think when u have expectations you tend to become sure of the person's behaviour...? - i mean, am referring to the fact that it is human tendancy to expect some kind of behaviour or pattern from a person you know very well. And it might sometimes hurt when they act otherwise. Anyway these are cases of extremities and that too in rare situations. And it doesnt need a debate or consensus in opinion... :-)
dheepak - yeah, i generally don't resort to... but this idea came up spontaneously and so i started building on the same.
wookie - thanks for the visit... :-) i know your blog through eroteme's blog. umm... and have always wondered what the name meant...
your comments sound like that of a teacher's, donno why... :D
good anti-climax indeed.
i was so sure u were going to say Cigerette :P :P...just kidding
Nice one. I really didn't guess it. I thought you were basically giving us a piece of fiction (something you would have wanted to happen in your life ;-). Nice piece. I enjoyed the quick scene about people leaving "both" of you on the terrace...
Thanks for sending me that song. It is an interesting one.
Renuka,
I tend agree with wookie here, neat. Coming off my last post, your post still kept in the same frame of mind :)
Keep it up=keep it going. I def don't wanna sound like a teacher!:)
s m i t h a - thanks!! ada paavi... cigarette of all things... OMG :))
yeah, wrt to the feel... true. And considering the fact i have heard from ppl that a person goes to such a high while smokin..., yeah maybe...
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eroteme - thanks a lot for your comments... yeah i did njoi writing that :-) especially the scene and the usage of the word: bivouac - have never got a chance to use and was happy that it fit the bill perfectly...
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ss - thank you!!! :-) it is great to hear that it lingers on one's mind - i suppose that it yet another measure of writing... not sure which part of it does that, but i would be happy to leave such an impact... like how, certain posts of many other bloggers have left one on my mind.
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LW - thanks... for that. the analysis was an afterthought, because i wanted ppl to know how good a song it is, especially when it bears the title of a post.
i sincerely hope ppl understood the relevance of the title... in fact i was really happy when i gave this as a title to my post – I couldn’t have thought of a better title!!
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wookie - sweet of you to come back n explain... thanks! i will try to live up to the expectations... ;-)
hey!!that was nice..
hmm..anti climax?endha madhiri dhaan edhavadhu erukkumnu nenachen!!:D
am still lookin for the song :(
read the lyrics and got the instumental version of it..but its the lyrics which makes the song beautiful!!!
Capital!
All i can mutter is a "oooooooo"
:-)
Enakku theryume enna solla porennu :) and u know why! :)
Excellent post Renuka. Shows the thought that has gone into the words!
hey prabha!!!! thanks for ur comments... hope u liked the song. very true - its the lyrics that makes it beautiful especially the first half and also, he has sung it very well...
capital!!! beautiful adjective...
srini - thanks!!! :-)
loooove this song...& i used to love the band...come to think of it now, they are so chick-flicky!! but nice :)
oooh... thanks cap_me for ur visit and the comments!! :-) am happy! great to know that u like this song - havent seen any of their videos or other songs of them.
chick-flicky :-? hmm...thanks for the info ;-)
Renuka,
I am amazed by your writing. It's too good.
Ramesh.
ramesh - thanks a lot!! :-) i had to scramble through the a lot of posts to find where exactly u had commented... :D
well... do u have a blog?
Ref: Making love out of nothing at all, Air Supply.
ReNUka,
No. I don't have a blog. There's just one for namesake. There's nothing in there. May be some day in future. Until then I am just going to enjoy reading. I read your Jun 05 blog 'Silhouette'. I don't know you. But from your blogs I know this about you. You are really crazy about rain and sleep. That is so poetic. And you are a big fan of the violent Kill Bill series. You ARE crazy :-)
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Just kidding. I know what you are referring to. I watched both of them in theater. Though the second half of the first part was comical and distasteful, hats off to Tarantino for his inventiveness & the artists for their performance. I love his work in Pulp fiction too.
Ramesh.
hi ramesh...
well, what to say? first of all thanks for the reference. even though it looks out of place here, thts the only pointer that i have.
i actually am neither crazy abt rain nor sleep. i like rain for all the florish it brings to the earth. i suppose everybody likes it.
more than anything of kill bill its Vol.2's 'Last Chapter: Face to Face' that i like a lot - this is the one that has a lot of dialogues. yeah of course Vol.1's Showdown at the House of Blue Leaves for its music, camera movements and uma thurman.
i havent had a chance to see pulp fiction as yet.
Renuka, absolutely enjoyed your writing!
And I did fall when you took a complete U turn at the climax! :-)
OMG! The same words, how they change colors with context... simply superb! couldnt stop smiling at myself while rereading your post!!
btw, am yet to explore the song part!
Thanks Krish for refering me to this!
thanks dd! :-)
donno! this one is just very interesting! i am amazed after having seen the movie 'mazhai' and love for the song that appears in it. It gives me pleasure to come across deja vu's of things happening around the world.
this piece is definetely controversial when you end it saying 'falling for it'. Happy you have fallen for it in the first case! Interesting, humans tend to take blogs to heart and then to mind!
hi nithya! haven't seen the movie as yet. nice to know abt ur deja vus! :-)
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