Tuesday, September 09, 2025

The Wall in my Head

 

At times, I run through our past,

our exchanges and interactions,

like how I would feel a pretty wall,

but with some bumps and cracks.


And for each incident

I keep guessing a probability 

of the cause of the distance.


At times, I say I've gone past 

our state of affairs, 

which seems like it was more of 

my mind playing tricks

based on my expectations

you never met, 

or never had to meet.


Did I 

misread enthusiasm as affection

mistake impulse for attention

misjudge disinterest as preoccupation

misinterpret indifference as silence 


It perhaps was...

A perspective that you never had

An angle that you never viewed us from


Perhaps, the wall is in my head.

Who can tell?



~ 12 Jan, 2024

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